Testimony

Till the very end and even after I was calm and cool.
I have know for moths that it will come, so definatelly there was a time to adjust.

But then, when I am home unpacking the things (tons of them... cause I am a freakin' collector...), well... then its just hit you:
That you will never be again at that flat near the station
That you just put the last berries from previous summer into the freezer - and you actually see that the berries were prepared to be in the freezer.... and you also know how it was on a warm and sunny sathurday when they did it....

You just know. Because they became the part of your life. Back then really quickly and they actually never wanted to leave. They still dont want. You do not want it either.
And the astonishing 2000 kilometers just and simply doesn't matter.

(and then you put Jantar on and cry)

1 eve

Pani Danuta juz tam, gdzies w góre. Oby bylo lekko....

Annak ellenere hogy nem vagyok vallasos, valahol biztos vagyok abban hogy fenntrol figyel.

Ez hallatszik...

I am more than weak if it comes abot the netherlandse pop....



Gordon - Ik bel je zomaar even op

Gordon - I'll just call you up.I now just have free time. 
it is not important but I have to lose something to you. 
I just want to know how you are doing. 
because when I get home I'm sure you're asleep. 
Your voice always makes me happy.and I promise you in the weekend I am free.
 Then we go walking along the beach with two of us. 
And then again to our favorite restaurant.

Chorus: 
So I'll just call you up. 
I have to tell you, I'm crazy about you. 
I'll just call you up. 
there is nothing on this earth that I love so much. 
It may be a strange moment.to say that you are everything to me. 
but I want you to know that I really mean it. 
I have to hear you because only is only alone.
you are my best friend for me.I also do not know where I have earned everything. 
When I look into your eyes, I see myself standing. 
then I see a cheerful person there and I look at you with a smile. 
Every time it turns out that you are always there for me. 
you are the only one who knows me completely. 
before I meet you I always ran against the wall. 
but since the day I know you, you are going through fire for me! 
Chorus: 
I'll just call you up.
I have to tell you I am crazy about you.
I'll just call you up.there is nothing on this earth that I love so much. 
I'll just call you up.I have to tell you I am crazy about you.
I'll just call you up.there is nothing on this earth that I love so much.

...call you, by mine

....your name, and I will...

Call me by....

I do think that we reached the maximum, the apogeum and the end of anything a film can do, give and revards to you.

I do guess (what guess... I do know...) that its not only THE A-list film, but the ONE.

It is not leaving me for almost a week and hope it will never do.
Even tough that sweet-sorrow and huge thinking what's the aftermath.

Thats life, and the film showed the most impossible - our feelings, love, uncertanity, coming-of-age - the unspeakable.
And also, I did not speak at all recently, so it was kind of a slap on face to re-bound.... I am still not that convinced, but I definatelly dont want to be Oliver.... or Elio's Dad - in that absolutly quintessential speach at the end.

Just simply had no words more.